The times of my life

I'm Half Alive But I feel Mostly Dead

Sat, 16 Jun 2007 18:26:30 GMT

Life Update.

Geez its been a long time.

~ I finished my freshman year of college
~ Moving out was really sad, prolly cried like 4 times
~ Moving out was also shitty b/c it took forever b/c we only had one elevator
~ I did well in all my classes but my GPA was still not high enough
~ I'm really excited for next year. I Love alll my roomies so much

~ This summer has been fun and boring so far
~ I failed my first drivers test, so I have to wait til the 21st to take it again
~ I need to pass it this time b/c if not then I don't get my car and I might have to get my permit AGAIN
~ I feel like kind of a loser b/c it feels like all my friends are dating someone & of course I'm not
~ One of him, one of me, I'm on my own now. damn
~ I don't like anyone & I feel REALLY alone
~ My little brother is annoying me, and I'm done talking to him for a while
~ I hang out w/ Ash, Brian, Ed, Heather, Bobby n Brandon & alot of Brian's random ass friends. Mostly Ash & Brian.
~ I'm pretty sure that that fact makes me an extreme loser
~ I really want to go to the ocean, like now. But I don't have my car yet
~ Ash said something about me possibly working for her dad this summer and that would be awesome
~ If not, I have no clue where I could work for 2 months
~ I really need a job. I don't buy anything anymore b/c I don't want to spend money I don't have
~ My mom and I argue a LOT. I dunno we just don't see eye to eye anymore
~ I have bad sleeping patterns. I pretty much sleep alll day.
~ When I get my car I'm going to join a gym so I can stay healthy
~ I'm really torn up about a few things and its pretty much all I think about lately
~ I miss last summer, but I don't want it back
~I was looking through my senior year yearbook and theres pics of me with people I'm not friends w/ anymore && It made me sad.
~ The Fall Out Boy concert was hands down the best concert I ever went to
~ I feel like life is getting really real. everyone is growing up and I still feel like a little kid
~ I feel depressed. I mean life isn't that bad but I just feel shitty all the time.
~ I dunno maybe its a few things, maybe its everything

~ Basically I want my license & my car & I want to go back to school
I don't think I'm ever going to want to graduate. ever.

Hes the Reason for the Tear Drops on my Guitar

Thu, 26 Apr 2007 05:01:21 GMT

UPDATE:

- ipod is working
- I'm really bad w/ technology and prescribe to the "if you bang it a few times it will start working theory"
- I'm pumped my ipod is working
- I love my future roomies. esp: Brittany n Lindsey
- I'm so excited for next year, everyone is gonna be happy
- I love my new friend Tanya, but shes really sad on the inside
- That makes me sad
- I like Kyle, but I don't think he likes me
- That makes me sad too. lol ahhhh weelll
- I'm in the middle of procrastinating STILL n my bibliography is due in 12 hours.
- I don't know why I'm procrastinating this bad
- I'm so done with this school year
- I'm going to lose weight this summer & be healthy
- I think I want to join a sorority next year, but sometimes I hate girls..
- I want to get back into cheerleading, n thats why I need to lose weight n get healthy again
- I can't wait til I get my license & my CAR!
- I've been thinking about "change" & I feel like I've only changed for the better ie: more independent, less shy, more confidant, better at public speaking, better at decision-making, I learned alot about dealing with different types of people
- I miss having a few ppl in my life. A lot.
- I'm going to the horse race this weekend n getting shitty alllll day.
- I'm not as pumped for Tiger-Fest as everyone else is, mostly cuz I don't listen to Dashboard, but I'll be wasted by the time I get there so it should be fun anyways
- I hope I go to a party tomorrow night or else out somewheres to drink
- Whenever ppl visit me there's nothing going on n it makes me feel retarded n they prolly think I go to a really gay school N i don't go out
- I have something due or I have a test everyday next week
- This year is over on May 22nd
- I now love purevolume.com b/c I can download songs, which always makes me happy
- I just drank 2 vaults, a coke n half a Gatorade
- I'm gonna work on my work now

Planets are moving at the speed of light

Tue, 24 Apr 2007 21:38:05 GMT

I know I should be doing my bibliography but I guess I just need to get some things off my chest before I can actually sit down n concentrate enough to write it.

Well I guess I'll start with my shitty basically 2ish weeks now.

The week before last I did really bad on my geography exam, which doesn't sound like that big of a deal but to me it is, I have to do well to keep up my grade point average to stay in the Honors College and its important that I stay in the Honors College b/c: I want to graduate with Honors AND They give me yearly $ 1,000 every year. so thats $ 4,000 towards my education that I really can't afford to lose. So I'm worried n stressed about that class n about my grades n everything. I also failed a quiz in History 100 which was shitty too so I'm pretty stressed n worried about those two classes.

That Thursday was a pretty awesome day (or so it started) b/c Brandon came to visit me n I got my computer back cuz it got fixed and I went shopping with my friend Brittany, whom I never see anymore, it was great to see her n get a few new shirts.

All my school friends n I had decided to go to Baja earlier in the week so we went Thursday but it was all full of drama which I hate because when I go out I just want it to be fun w/o ppl acting retarded. First my friends were rushing me n Makenna n Katie n then they were being stingy w/ alcohol which was so dumb, and annoyed me n then my friend got WASTED after like 2 shots of vodka. N i was like seriously, I kno its not ur fault, but she was being silly n falling over and I hate taking care of drunken people, because its always funny at first but then its a huge hassel. That night I was pissed off and I called Brandon but he decided to not answer my calls so I was like fuck it, I'm going home this weekend cuz my school friends annoyed me n I just didn't want to be there that weekend.

Friday I call Ash up n she was already up Towson shopping so she just took me home, n then I just chilled with my family, n then Ash calls me up n tells me that we're gonna go to Friendly's with Linds n Jason. Jason comes over to get me and I get in the car and SURPRISE! That kid Donald and that girl Lindsay that Lindsay works w/ were in the car. They know my brother cuz they all work at Best Buy together so they were like "lets invite David." so I seriously, but in a haha silly voice say: "Hes not invited." n their like "No, lets invite him tho." n I'm like "HES NOT INVITED." So from that point on it I could tell that that girl Lindsay doesn't like me. It would have been nice if Lindsay n Jason would have told Ashley n I that Donald and Lindsay were going with us. I thought it was just going to be us, as in, my friends: Jason n linds n Ash n me. But there was this couple that I didn't even know there and I didn't even know they were there til I got in the car. So me and Ash felt retarded like "I'm on a date with my girlfriend lol." We love how we're always the lesbian couple.

The rest of the weekend I just chilled at my house n talked to Ash on the phone a few times. n then I went to work Sunday n was in a shitty mood. I texted Brandon on Friday just to see what was up but of course he didn't respond

That Monday the shootings happened at VA Tech n everyone was really sad n in a bad mood b/c alot of people actually know people that were literally involved in the situation as in they were in both the buildings that it happened in and they could have literally been shot and died. So everyone's parents were calling them up n telling them they loved them, because you never know where that kind of thing could happen.

All week it was rainy n sad n I was stressed about my school work n grades.

Nothing major pissed me off until Wed. when I decided to text Brandon n see what was up cuz he usually answers my phone calls n texts. Basically the short of it is that since I won't have sex with him he doesn't want to hang out with me. N like I'm 19 I've waited this long to have sex, I'm not just gonna do it to get it over with. I'm in college, I party literally EVERY weekend, I could have had sex a million times, but I want to wait til I'm in a relationship. Not waiting for marriage or love or whatever, just a relationship where I know the other person cares about me. Everyone else in the world can do what they want, but thats what I want to do, and if someone says their my friend then they should respect that. So, we're not friends anymore. I know its for the best, but its still upsetting to lose someone you thought was your friend.
Anyway, at this point in my week I'm stressed, feeling shitty n I'm upset about Brandon. On wed. Lindsay G.(I know wayyy to many ppl named Lindsay) tells me that we're gonna get dinner, n I woke up late that day, So I just waited til dinner to eat. So i get back to my room after class and im her and she doesn't answer n then I text her n she doesn't answer so I just do some other things n wait n then an hour later shes like "oh sorry, i ate without u." I was pretty annoyed n it didn't help that I was already upset n feeling shitty. I go eat w/ Kim n Sarah n Jordan n then they come back to my room w/ me for a little while n helped make me feel somewhat better. N while I'm in the pasta line lindsay texts me n is like "are you mad at me?" N like what was I supposed to say to that? Um yea I'm pretty annoyed, ur a shitball. but instead I said. "no." N i really just didn't feel like talking to her after that. N she went home the next day so its not like I was avoiding her or anything.

Thursday I only left my room one time to go to my history class. I just didn't feel like talking to ppl. It was realllly late n Brittany n Lindsey M. come in my room n their like "we're going out" so they literally do my hair n drag me out w/ them n I had had a shitty week so I was like whatever I'll go n get drunk for free, lol. We went to the TKE house n I had at least 3 cups of jungle juice in like an hour n then I drank at least 3 cups of beer n I was chillin w/ my friend Tanya who came n then we decided the TKE party was beat so we left n went over to the Lambda Chi party where we know everyone so we go and who is there but Susan and Tiffany. I was really drunk n pissed that they didn't call me up to go to the party so I didn't say anything to them n then went in the party n told ppl they hung out w/o me n then they come in n their like right behind me. So i go out on the patio n try to come to my senses but it was pretty hard cuz I was so wasted. So I come in an apologize after all they might have some sort of reason for not inviting me. N it just pissed me off b/c its like they wouldn't even know each other if it wasn't for me. So we all walk back or whatever n of course I hold kyle's hand the whole way because I like him, but I don't think he likes me. Plus the only time I try to talk to him is when I'm drunk, so that prolly doesn't make him think I like him, whatever I'm done w/ guys for a while.

&& I know that I never accept other peoples actions even if their drunk b/c its ur fault that u were drunk, so I'm not using being reallly drunk as an excuse. But I really haven't been that wasted since I took 7 shots in a row this summer. Plus I apoogized.

Friday after I died from all the drinking, somehow even though it took me 5 minutes to climb into my bed n it spun until the second I finally passed out, I went to lunch w/ Katie, her mom, her boyfriend Shane(who is officially my favorite guy friend, hes soooo awesome. Their the cutest couple ever.), and my friend April. We went to Red Robin and the food was great n they told the ppl it was my birthday n I was really embarassed but got a free Sundae lol. I love Katie lots, I'm so glad I met her. I don't know what I would do if she n Franny weren't my friends.

Later I went to my room n took a nap n then woke up got a shower n made sure that everyone who said they were going out to dinner w/ me was going. So Ash n April were coming but Lindsey M n Brittany were MIA and Susan n Tiffany call me up n decide that their going to the All American Rejects Concert b/c they got literally last minute tickets. So I was pissssseed. My week had been shitty n now my friends were cutting out on me. N then Linds didn't sound like she really wanted to come. N I know that she might not have liked some of my college friends the first time she visited but I don't hang out with them anymore and even if I did, its still a birthday thing for me n you should just come even if its not gonna be fun. I really don't know what she was doing all day but all day she kept telling me n Ash she would call us back. So since like no one was there to go to my dinner I was like whatever I'll just go eat at the mall w/ April n Ash which was fun so it was ok. The whole time Linds kept saying she was on her way n we were like alright, well we're tired so being at the mall now.... lol. Her n Jason finally meet up w/ us n I'm not gonna lie I didn't want to hang out w/ Jason there. N before she had said he would just drop her off, but obviously not. If she didn't want to hang out w/o Jason or if she didn't want to come she should have just said so. I really would have been like whatever, everyone else wasn't there either so fuck it. And for the record before people get super pissed off at me when reading this, I DON"T hate Jason. I just wanted a girls night dinner and NONE of my guy friends were invited. &&& I literally haven't seen Linds w/o Jason since I honestly can't remember. I know they date n thats cool, their gonna wanna hang out with each other alot (and I like Jason so its fine w/ me), but I would love to hang out w/ my bff w/o her boyfriend there, b/c whether ppl want to believe it or not, being in a relationship changes u and I HATE change so for just a little while It would be cool to have the old linds back. ANYWAY we go eat at the diner n then April n I were tired n we knew no one wanted to drive us back so we just went back to school.

I got up the next morning n went to lunch w/ my dad n then went home n I guess my mom forgot I had wanted to go to dinner but she had started cooking so I just ate at home. I don't like Shake and bake. :( lol I stayed up late talking to my brother about all the crazy stuff going on in our lives and hes a cool kid. def. my fav. So Ash called to see if I wanted to hang out but it was really late n I had to work Sunday so I just stayed in. OH yeah & Sarah called me n shes like never coming back so I really just wanted to cry. I miss her soooooo much. I can't even explain how bad I feel about getting so mad at her for changing what her plans were. I still don't think she should be doing what shes doing but I should still support her and I really feel like a bad friend.

Sunday I slept in n then got up n i told my mom alll about my shitty week n eveything sucky in my life & how I feel like my summers going to suck b/c all my friends r going down senior week n I can't go b/c I have no money n no car. And I don't have that many friends at home n this summer isn't going to be anything like last summer, which was a pretty sweet summer. N then we got into a discussion of some family problems n I just tried to tell her how I view it and it seemed like she could only see it from her view n I was really trying not to get anymore pissed off and upset before I had to go to work. But of course we did n I felt bad but I had to go to work so I couldn't really end the convo. But anyway I go to work and of course Susan was at work so I didn't want to talk to her n she was all like "omg u didn't answer my phone call", welll duhhh, ur a bitch. so it turned out the computers weren't working so we didn't have to work. And Susan came up n talked to me but I wasn't in the mood. So I said we would talk later. & I knew I should have gone to my room and studied but I went to eat n went to the mall w/ Kevin n Kim n they made me feel 10 million times better.

Then I went to my room n read for geography n spent a long ass time uploading songs n switching songs to my new blue ipod, which I'm psyched about but it decided to stop working last night. I didn't even do anything to it, it just didn't turn on. I didn't shake it, didn't drop it didn;t pour water on it, didn't do anything to it. I went to all my classes Monday n called my mom and she said that as soon as school is out n I get my license shes gonna get me a car. it might be a little hard w/ finances and everything but we're getting me one. Its not going to be an expensive one, but it will be MY CAR!!!! I'm so pumped. My life is 10 times better now, knowing that alot of my problems r going to be over in like a month. I can't even explain how pumped I am. But I'm going to have to work ALOT this summer so I can help w/ insurance for as long as I can. And of course pay for my own gas.

Yesterday night Susan imed me n I told her why I was mad n all that n that I just hadn't wanted to talk to her b/c of how upsetting n shitty my week was. N she told me that they didn't intentionally mean to hurt me blah blah. N that other ppl were having problems to n that I needed to ask them about their problems. N yes I understand that n where shes coming from but my week was seriously like the shittiest week in a LONG time & when ppl treat me shitty I tend to not give a shit about their problems. SO today susan n tiff n linds ate lunch n didn't invite me b/c I'm sure they wanted to talk about me. ie: susan wanted to tell tiff n ash what I said. Bitches.

Anyway thats my life. so leave a comment if u want.

A picture is worth a thousand words

Tue, 03 Apr 2007 06:07:15 GMT

Bobby & Ed visit:



Lambda Chi Alpha party

Before the Hockey game


Random Future Roomie Pics






Black Light/ Highlighter Party:








Apartment Party:








Random Times:

TIGERFEST:

FAMILY:

Thats it for now.

Tue, 13 Mar 2007 21:29:41 GMT

so i don't strepp or mono. but I am on anti-biotics.

& I have to gargle salt water so i don't get an infection.

i have alot of hw to do n i need to nap.

i have 4 exams, not 3.

geez

i can't wait til thursday @ 2

Tue, 13 Mar 2007 01:38:38 GMT

MY life is awesome.

I have strepp throat
& the health center closed @ 5:00
The health center doesn't open until tomorrow @ 8

I have 3 mid-terms this week.

i'm going to be on anti-biotics over spring break

FUUUCCCKKK.

So deep that it didn't even bleed

Sat, 10 Mar 2007 06:12:07 GMT

SO yet again my life is hilariously crazy. I've been mad busy doin lots of things w/ cool peeps.

I'll go day by day:

Thursday march 1st:

~Took my first geography quizz. got a C.
~ Went on a tour of Towson Run & we decided its goin down next year. Its gonna be crazy, we're gonna have parties like every other day & be completely fucked up all the time. I'm pretty pumped. we better get it & all be together.

Friday March 2nd:
~ hung out with franny, & turned in my housing deposit.
~ Decided to go home because everyone was leaving that weekend so I didn't want to be at school alone.
~ My mom picked me up.
~ I chilled w/ my family.

Sat. March 3rd:
~ went to the bank deposited my checks!
~ Went shopping with my mom
~ Caught up on all my fv shows that I miss when I'm at school.
~ Ashley called me after she got off work & we went over to CCBC Dundalk & hung out w/ Brian K, while him & Big Jeremy we're playin bball
~ It was really cold so we all got back in the cars & went to Brian's house.
~ We just chilled in Brian's house for like 4 hours n watched tv n talked. He's so hilarious. We def. had good times. We can't wait to hang out w/ him some more soon.

Sun. March 4th:
~ Left Brian's really late & went back home & went to sleep
~ got up early n ate n hung out w/ my moms some more & then she drove me back to school
~ get back to school & my roomie ate my [fav] chips. :(
~ went to work: only makde $95.00 in pledges. it sucked

Monday March 5th:
~ got up early went to ceramics, had a hard time workin my clay. :(
~ went to my room: showered
~ went to bio lab, watched gattaca
~ grabbed lunch alone went to bio lecture, didn't sit next to sarah :(
~ went to women's studies: found out I had a mini-presentation due. wed.
~ ate a snack & went to work: didn't make any pledges, walked back alone, cuz i was upset.
~ waited for the firedrill in my building to be over then walked up 8 flights of stairs
~ started crying in my room
~ went to bed really early, cried in bed
~ got 10 hours of sleep

Tues. March 6th:
~woke up really well rested, went to geography.
~ went back to my room: did some reading for uie history
~went to history: found out I did a really good job on my bibliography test. I got a B!!!
~ went back to my room & cleaned like crazy.
~ ate lunch & stayed in trying to work on my mini-presentation that was due the next day.
~ half-finished my presentation

Wed. March 7th:
~ up early went to ceramics(even tho it was SNOWING we didn't have off class, fuckers), finished my pots, did better
~ came back to my room worked on my mini-presentation, finished it
~ went to bio lecture, then gave my presentation, I think it went well. (I wrote a poem for it, I'll post it later maybe.)
~ hung out with lindsay, went to trax to get good food w/ the rest of our meals. got a LOT of things
~ Studies for my uie history quizz, & then watched lost & went to bed

Thurs. March 8th:
~skipped geograhy, couldn't take the lecture that morning
~got up studied for my footnote quiz
~ took a quick shower, forgot my bluebook to take the test in
~ went to uie History had to borrow a book from someone
~ took the test, I think I did well.
~ went back to my room took a nap
~ woke up did my hair, decided to go to baja, talked to ash on the phone & (Jason on aim who said he wanted to hang out soon...yea ok)
~ franny came over& tiffany came down, we started drinkin: vodka & crysta light, yummy.
~ Franny had food poisoning so she had to go & we decided not to go to Baja.
~ called up ppl n found out about a valley view party
~ went to the party in 4 inch heels & my roomates shirt i borrowed, had a blast, met a million ppl n talked to sum ppl I already knew
~ Drank 2 beers & 3 cups of jungle juice?
~ started holding hands w/ this cool boy i had met once before, kissed him
~ The cops came & busted the party: we had to walk down a huge hill in the cold snow in 4 inch heels. He asked if I wanted him to carry me: he so cute.
~ amazingly i didn't die coming down the hill SO: all the boys came back to Tiffany's room
~ My boy stayed over in my room & .......

Friday: March 9th:
~ Woke up the next morning n we chatted for like 2 hours n called my friend to wake her up for class
~ called Franny & went to alcohol class (cuz of my citation LAST SEMESTER.)
~ Ate lunch w. Franny & Susan, went to Tiffany's room to tell her details about the rest of my night after I left her room :)
~ came back to my room: called Ashley ,my mom & my dad
~ went to Lindsay's room to hang out w/ her
~ took a nap and my roomate decided to talk about me to her friend WHILE I WAS IN THE ROOM. I could hear her even tho she was whispering. Its like: fuck you, you stupid bitch, go back to New Jersey & stay there forever, the world would be a better place for it.
~ I was going to go out but I was dead tired so I watched tv, called Ashley twice (we serously talk on the phone like every day more than once a day lol. I <3 her so much.)
~Now I'm updating my journal. It's been to long to type in details about everything.

Future plans:
Sat. March 10th(tomorrow):
~ tailgating + lax game= being drunk ALLLLL DAY.

March 11th- 15th:
~working + classes all week
~ & some tests & quizzes

March 15th:
~ coming home for SPRING BREAK!!!!!!!!
~ Hopfully hanging out with: Ashley(obviously), my fam(duh) Brian & Brandon.
~ So we'll see how it all goes down.

I always feel like, somebody's Watchin me.

Thu, 01 Mar 2007 05:08:20 GMT

Why is my life moving so fast?

I hate geography.

A lot.

x 10.

fuck this shit.

I suck @ studying.

I really wanna hang out w/ my bros, but I have NO desire to go home.

;(

N I need to call up B Hol b/c this parkin ticket shit pisses me off everytime I think about it.

BOO TU, occasionally u suck.

I <3 Jar-heads

Tue, 27 Feb 2007 02:51:05 GMT

MY LIFE IS HILARIOUS.

I have a parking ticket and I don't have a car.

My first check was $20.36.

I don't like that boy on my floor anymore.

buttt ....... I hung out w/ hot marines this weekend.

so

beat that bitches.

My life gets funnier everyday. really it does.

I need a shower.

&&I'm actually glad theres space between me & my old friends/friends from home
b/c I have a shitload of new friends who I wouldn't have made if I was always going home.

OH WHAT A DAY.

oiii

I don't live there anymore, and neither do they.

Fri, 23 Feb 2007 19:22:31 GMT

So, My life is awesome. I have something to do everyday, I'm working towards my goals, I'm not late to class like I was last semester, I'm getting to think I know what type of law I want to deal with and that, &maybe, just maybe, I want to do teach for a year or two after I graduate, I have a job, I have a shitload of friends & I have a crush on this cute boy on my floor. I also figured out where I'm gonna live next year and who with. Its not definate but I'm pretty sure its gonna happen. Pretty soon me and Bobby are going up to PA to visit Heather & Ed. I'm going to take a road trip with my friends soon and I started working out again so I'm gonna lose a few pounds n feel healthier. Life is pretty sweet.

But I can't help but feel sad sometimes. I just keep remembering all of these things in my life that I miss. Its not even things I lost. Its things that are just over & you can't ever get them back. I have really had alot of good times in my life doing different things with different people. I miss playing tag everyday with the kids on my court. I don't live there anymore and neither do they. I miss playing categories with my family on friday nights when I was little. We don't play that game anymore and my parents don't live together. I miss law class & all the people there. We graduated back in june. I miss staying home from school and getting happy meals with my mom. We don't eat Mcdonald's anymore. I miss watching bad movies & sportscenter with my dad. We barely speak now. I miss making christmas cookies with my mom. We don't celebrate christmas anymore. I miss playing jv lacrosse even though we lost every game that season. I don't play sports anymore.

I miss 3 of them, 3 of us.

Well I try to do it right this time around.

Fri, 16 Feb 2007 19:17:56 GMT

So I haven't had a real update in a while. And lots of things have happened in my life.

So first off winter break ended and I could not have been happier. Winter break sucked. I was bored, didn't have a job n had no one to hang out with so I sat around all day. N everytime I hung out w/ my friends they were in bad moods n everyone would argue n yell the whole time so I didn't feel any better when we hung out. I also didn't get to see some people that i had wanted to hang out with. But its ok, future winter breaks will NOT suck like that. lol

So I came back to school n I wanted to make sure that this semester is really fun. I came back to school on sat n my roomate wasn't coming back til Sunday so it was up to me to call up people n make my own day fun. Last semester I kind of depended on my roomate for stuff to do and I didn't want this semester to be the same. I wanted to be tottally independent. So I called up all my friends to see if they were back yet and what they were doing. I met some new people and hung out over in Tower B. It was pretty fun. One of the first weekends back I went to the Ice Hockey game and the to a baseball party which was CRAZY. The game was fun, but extremely cold n we lost. :( The boys try so hard so it sucks that we lose all the time. Their also so nice and adorable, well most of them anyway lol. The baseball party was crowded n they weren't letting anyone else in but this kid we were with knew someone so we got in n I saw some of my friends from my gov class last semester. But they didn't have any cups left and their were alot of half naked girls dancing in their underwear so we left. And went back to Tower B and drank hot cocoa.

I pretty much like all of my classes this semester. I have ceramics really early in the morning so its hard to wake up for that class but I'm really interested in making pottery so I always wake up for it. I have to walk all the way to the center for the Arts by 8am, but I deal with it. Then I have bio lab and lecture which is easy, it makes me feel like I'm back in 9th grade. "ok students...now put the idodine on the cracker. Seeeee...it turns black, so starch is present." A+ lol. I also have geography which is easy because he just lectures so I'm not gonna read the book which is really wordy n long. I'm just gonna go to all the classes n pay attenton to the lectures n then review my lecture notes. Then I have Using Information Effectively in History which is a class I really like. My professor is really funny & sarcastic. And theres really not that much work to do but we learn alot. So its pretty sweet. Plus I love history no matter how many other people hate it lol. And then I have my women in perspective class which is very interested I already learned alot of things about feminism that I didn't know. Its pretty interesting and theres no pressure to agree with anything we learn, we just learn it. I like all my classes and I'm going to try to do really well in all of them. Gotta up my GPA. lol

I also GOT A JOB & heres the crazy part: I LOVE IT. The TowsonFund sent me and e-mail about the job and I already had 3 friends who worked for the phonathon and they told me it was a great job so I sent an e-mail and got an application and filled it out and then they called me for an interview. I think I did pretty well on my interview, the girls were really nice and I tried my hardest. The job is calling up seniors, parents and alumni and talking to them about new things at the university and then asking them to make a gift to the university to help with the improvements. Its an easy job and its really fun. I make more money than I did at my job at Party City and I had wayyyy more hard work to do for that. I had training for my job allll day Sunday and then I started on Monday. I got two gifts on the first day of work so it was pretty sweet. The people I work with are great and I already made alot of new friends. Plus my hot friend steve works with me. YEAY!!! lol.

So last Thursday I went over to my friend Katie & Franny' s room & we just hung out and ate salsa and watched greys anatomy. Bud me to go to a frat party with here. Shes a transfer student so she is really pumped to go out here. So last minute I decided to go with her and I dragged Franny with me. I like ran to my room combed my hair n put some make-up on and went. And I saw alot of people I knew when I got there. I see Brad & Scottie n like ALLLL the hockey boys. lol So i talked with scottie n flirted w/ mike whose on a break with his gf lol. I was mad happy about that, hes so cute & nice. OOO n scottie n brad have a new roomie Dan who is extremely hot, I tottally creamed my pants when I saw him. lol Hes like what I think a guy should look like. anyway. we partied n danced n went crazy n franny had to leave n then we went with brad n scottie n brads car back to their apartment. Prolly not a good idea b/c brad had tottally been drinkin but I didn't think about it b/c i had too so, oh well? thats so bad lol. Anyway murph fucking molested me in the car b/c hes a perverted hornball. So they puffed the magic dragon when we got there but wouldn't let me join in and I'm not gonna lie I was pissed. So tiff and I decided to go back to the dorms since we were tired n she was confused b/c she was drunk n had no clue where she was. lol It was freezing and we weren't wearing coats so we ran back really fast to the dorm. I also talked to these two kids on my floor n we talked about NY accents n not meeting any jewish or black ppl before college. interesting convo.

So the next day I got ready n Jason picked me up n we went over Lindsays b/c she was having a lil birthday get together. Honestly the only thing i was pumped for was that Mark was there n I could puff the magic dragon with him. It was interesting, i gotta work on my technique lol. My various stoner friends are going to help me so it should be good. Anyway I wasn't really in a good mood from the start and nobody was really drinkin except linds n jason. We were also playin who wants to be a millionaire & i was pissed because Mark wasn't on my team like we had decided.....grrrr. So then its only like 1:00 n we're all just kinda sitting there n I'm sippin on my alcohol linds mixed for me and talkin to ppl when Lindsay n Jason go downstairs to use the bathroom and then 20 minutes later we're all like "dude where'd they go? ahahahahah their prolly downstairs making out. haha." So we just sit there n eat more pizza n talk about whatever. And so Matt has to go to the bathroom so he opens the door n all we hear is some LOUD ASS MOANING coming from the other room. so we all start crackin up like OMG I can't believe this is happening. HILARIOUS. I seriously wish we had recorded it b/c it was hilarious. Anyway so Matt n I go downstairs to use the bathroom n we make sure to talk the whole way down the stairs to drown out the moaning(but not too loud because her parents were sleepin) . After we go back up we're just sitting there talking for like 2 hours n Linds n jason r still in the other room doing whatever & we're all sitting there sober just talking about whatever & Mark calls his sister b/c he wants to go home n Matt wasn't planning on staying to begin with. I was soo bored n I made a comment about Matt's girlfriend being a bitch n we got into a little argument there.But I felt REALLLY bad like 5 minutes later so I prolly apologized to the kid like 15 times. I still feel bad about it because I don't really know her and Mat is such a cool guy and he stuck up for me when his girlfriend called me a slut. So it was really rude of me to say that about her. So Mat accepts my apology and tells me to stop apologizing n we were back on good terms. Mark goes home and its just Me, Tyler, Mat & Ashley. Ash had been up for a long time she shes like I'm going to sleep and Mat wanted to go home. I wasn't going to sleep on the floor when I had been sooooo bored that night so Mat offered to drive me home. When I got home I was soooo pissed off and I prolly talked to my brother for like 5 years about all kinds of things. I pretty much tell him EVERYTHING these days.

So I couldn't go to sleep & I was mad bored in my house because I don't live there anymore, So none of my stuff is there. It was so annoying to be at home when I wasn't supposed to be. So I went downstairs n talked to my mom when she woke up n I watched some episodes of Rome that I missed n then I finally fell aslep on the couch & when i woke up i got into an argument with my mom and she was like watever i'm driving u back to towson. so i went back to school n i just went in my room n cried. N i hate it b/c i never cry. Anyway so the next morning I had my training for work n I was almost late but the training turned out to be really fun.

Overall my life is going pretty good. I love being at school and I'm not looking forward to leaving for the summer. I wish I could just stay here with all of my friends allll the time. It would be so much better than going home. Cuz I have alot of family issues n right now friend issues. And I just feel like I'm growing apart from all my friends. Except Ashley b/c we pretty much talk to each other everyday. lol She seems to be the only person that agrees with me lately. Jason seems to think that we're blowing things out of porportion. And he keeps apologizing but hes not sorry because he doesn't think he has anything to be sorry about so i just wish he would quit saying it. Because its not true. Hes not sorry about what happened, hes sorry that we're mad about it. Oh and s he also think that I'm ridiculous. but its watever. I honestly just don't care at this point. I love being at Towson n I'm glad I have 3 more years of this.

Alot of people say that High school is the best years of your life, but those people obviously didn't go to college.

** AND i'm not writing this to upset anyone who may read it. I just wrote what I feel about what happened in my life. and thats that so like it or don't, its what think.**

But then I just smile

Fri, 09 Feb 2007 21:13:37 GMT

Life is good.

Fri, 19 Jan 2007 04:09:41 GMT

winter break SUX

I have the most boring life in history & I can't wait for it to not be boring anymore.

but things change, and that's the way it is.

Sat, 06 Jan 2007 07:07:19 GMT

    So, we had nothing to do tonight, nothing new there, anywayz everyone was mad n yelling n ppl were being rude n the whole time i was just chill n texting brandon who was hiiigh n was cracking me up. anyway so eventually it got to the point where i just wanted to go home (b/c everyone was upset and mad but me) so Tyler told me he would drop me off on his way home. So i go over and stand with tyler n the kids linds invited over (it was like tony, paul, that one girl, the fat kid w/ curly hair n some other person i dunno...fucking gay ass scene kids.) so they were talking about how they heard about a party n it ended up being just 3 black guys sitting there playing video games n right when they said that I thought in my mind "oh god, racism is about to ensue" and sure enough...the next thing they say is "omg we'd prolly have gotten shot." and the girl's like "black ppl in essex shoot everyone."
    N I'm thinking..."WTF, I hate racism." N you might be like "oh well they were prolly just kidding.." well they weren't they were dead serious. So I say really sarcastically. "Yeah, because all black people do is shoot people." (same argument brian was making the first time I met him....and we KNOW how that went...) So EVERYONE responds..."yeah they do." (meanwhile they alll look at me like I'm psycho to be disagreeing with them) n the lone fat kid was like "well maybe in like O'donnel heights..but not in Essex".....wow.....seriousy....people are soo fucking stupid. N the girl responds to me "yeah they do." N Tyler's like "essex is full of rednecks." which HELLO it is. Theres way more redneck hicks in essex than black ppl and if anyone is gonna shoot someone its gonna be the fucking redneck hicks who hate black ppl (who are probably that girls parents..) seriously ppl r so fucking stupid. I kinda just looked at Paul like...I could swear you knew I was black..but nothing there...hes a fucking retard who needs to wash his hair. So me n Tyler walk away n I'm like "Ppl r so fucking stupid." They were not even joking.
    I'm not one to get offended easily over simple things, but when people seriously say shit like that and they aren't joking its really pathetic and they need to be called out on it. I seriously hate people. I'm never hanging out with Paul or any of his douche bag friends again. I already don't like them scene fucks anyway and for them to say that kinda shit is ridiculous. I guess cuz alot of people don't realize that I'm black, people just feel free to say all of their hatred and stupid racism in front of me. Well even if I wasn't black its just kinda like you don't fucking know me, you don't know who my friends are, you don't know who my family is, you don't know who I date, you don't know shit about me so maybe you shouldn't just spit racist shit around like your so damn much better than everyone else.

So to wrap it up Ash n Linds n Tyler can hang around those fucks alllll they want to be NOT ME. If she trys to say "lets call up Paul." I'll be like you can call him up after you take me home because I'm not hanging around those fucking gay ass losers. The only reason I hung around w/ Brian after all the shit he said is, we didn't really hang out w/ him that much and he gave me a sincere apology and him being the asshole that he generally is it was really surprising that he apologized at all.

I hate racism n racist ppl.

fuck

Tue, 02 Jan 2007 06:18:55 GMT

So I'm in a really shitty mood n I'm gonna go ahead n list why:

1) I'm not gonna be able to get a car this summer. I have to get a full time job this summer so that when my mom (and eventually my shitty dad) can help me out I will have some money to get a car with. I'm also gonna have to get a job when I get back to towson. I'm not complaining about getting a job b/c i've had one before, but I don't have someone to drive me all the time job, so I have to get a job I can walk to. which means my job is going to be shitty and I'm going to hate it. I'm never going to be able to drive. shit.

2) My friends keep lieing to ppl n its starting to piss me off. Tell people the truth, their not gonna be that mad. damn

3) My "best friend" is fucking her entire life up and I'm trying to tell her that its a really bad idea but she doesn't seem to care and doesn't seem to want to talk to me. But ya know, "whatev" Its just like thanx for calling me and telling me ur home or that u wanna hang or i dunno something.

4) I hate when people call me and say "where on our way to get you" or they say "We're at your house now". I love my friends their great & I love hanging out with them and I'm very appreciative when they go out of their way to pick me up and then take me home again b/c I don't drive but fucking call me before you show up at my house n give me a few minutes to get ready b/c I hate making ppl wait.

5) I'm getting tired of hearing about all these people I don't know. Its like I don't know if you remember back a few weeks but I lived somewhere else for about 4 months and I didn't meet all these people that you met so if your gonna talk about them at least exlain who they are.

6) Plus I fucking hate scene ppl. And I'm pretty sure they don't like me either b/c I don't dress retarded like they do and I'm not "cool." I also hate emo ppl n rocker ppl n preppy hollister kids. their stupid. they dress stupid and I'll say it when I think it. & you might respond: "well they prolly think your stupid too." my response: "GOOD, I don't give a shit. They look stupid & their ASSHOLES."

6) Ppl need to wash their fucking hair. And if they do but style it so make it seem like they don't then their GAY.

7) I know that other ppl really don't give a shit about what I do when I'm at school and all the ppl I hang out with so I don't talk about them. I don't want to bore other ppl with stories of alll these people they have never met so I don't talk about it unless its an extremely funny relevant story. So it would be pretty cool if other ppl would do the same for me.

8) If have to hear the name tony boobs one more time I'm gonna hit someone.

9) I don't have any money. I can't go on vacation this summer, I can't go on a cruise or to mexico or to senior week. I don't have the money
I'm going to need allll my money for whatever sorority I choose to join. Which I'm really excited about and no one at all is excited for me. I'm really pumped about it and I try to tell ppl about it and I don't even get a "thats cool." their just like "good for you."

10) I fucking hate winter time with a passion. My skin breaks out n gets dry & winter is just an all around shitty season. its like FUCK if it has to be cold and i have to freeze all the time at least fucking snow outside. shit.

11) I also haven't talked to another one of my friends in a while n it its bothering me for some reason. I feel really pathetic when I think about it. I seriously need to stop bc its NEVER going to happen and I already know that. I just wish I could meet someone that was interested. :(

12) I'm also really tired alllll the time even tho I've been sleeping alll day for the past few weeks and not doing anything. I need to take irons pills. :(

13) Basically I just want to go back to Towson & start my semester & and join a sorority. Like NOW.

Been a long time, Since I've lay with you in bed

Sat, 23 Dec 2006 07:31:07 GMT

Quick Update on my life.

* Took all my finals & the grades are:
       Cultural Studies: B
      Logic:                    B -
        Government:    A
        Speech:                B
        Legal Business: A
                            over all GPA: 3.334 HOLLA
* GPA = Not worried about staying in the honors college
* Jason had a party, it was fun, I didn't get drunk BUT....shit got stolen = ppl r assholes
* The library @ school is a good place to study minus the FaceBook temptation
* I enjoyed Ice Skating w/ Kaitlin & I'm def. gonna do it again
* Lying around my house eating cake icing is refreshing and fun
* Sleeping in a twin bed with another person is extremely uncomfortable & I do not recommend it
* I do however recommend sleeping w/ another person :p
* Boys still confuse me & even worse, I confuse myself.
* My family is crazy & try my hardest, but I dunno if its gonna work... guess I'll try harder?
* I LOVE my friends
* I really miss S. G.
* Maybe things aren't so bad

Future plans:

* Go see a movie or two
* Relax over break & start my diet/ working out since I have no jobby
* Hang out w/ my peeps
* Try a few new things :)
* Visit my roomie w/ Jennie
* Take a day trip to NYC w/ the roomie n Jennie
* Maybe visit Lindsay Griffindor in the process?
* Get a job on campus when I get back to Towson
* Rush for the sororities...find one I like?.... Join?
* Get extremely good grades next semester
&
* NO missing class

Sun, 10 Dec 2006 02:27:24 GMT

I'm bored and alone n i have no one to hang out w/.
I hate finals.
i hate hw.
i wanna go home n hang out with my friends.
I can't wait til break. this shit better be fun. :(

I also need some ass really bad.

damn it.

Thu, 07 Dec 2006 23:39:15 GMT

JOIN TODAY

Feelin Better.

Sun, 03 Dec 2006 22:30:52 GMT

OMG so my mommie bought me the cutest shoes ever! they were one sale. They are gorgeous steve madden black patent pumps.

SEXXII.

anyway. soo lunch w/ mi mama' was good and I got Kaitlin, Brandon and my roomie x-mas presents. I hope they like them. & I also told my mom to go buy part of Lindsays present for me lol. I'm in a better mood today. i'm gonna do some hw now n then I'm going to eat dinner w/ my new friend katie.

Sun, 03 Dec 2006 05:34:20 GMT

I haven't updated in forever so since I'm having a poopy day I figured I would update. I guess I'll start with what happened yesterday. Yesterday I woke up and went to class and we finished our class time in like 25 minutes so we left early. Pretty sweet, then I did all my laundry and worked on my hw. So I felt very accomplished. Alex and I decided that we were gonna go over to Tower D and drink and have Doug get us some natty light for Power Hour. Sam made the cutest power hour cd. Its 60 different tv show theme songs and everytime the song changes you have to take a shot of beer. It doesn't sound hard I mean over all its prolly like 4 cans of beer. But I'm a light weight so I got a lil drunk lol. Anyway so we went over to Tower D and we saw Doug on the way but he said that the RA's in Tower D didn't want to let him in w/o checking his bag so he just didn't go in the Tower. So we decided to all go over to my Tower. So it was, me, Sam, Shelby, Alex, Franny, Candas and Katie. We had wayyy too much fun n we built a beeramid w/ our cans. And omg I totally found my best friend here. Franny is crazy & we had soo much in common. She knew all the lil wyte songs I played!

Anyway we were getting ready to leave n go to pizans to get sum food b/c we were so hungry and two RA's come upstairs n their like you guys need to quiet down. So okay BYE but no, the fucking stupid bitch had to look all in our room and she wrote us up for having alcohol. But it wasn't as bad as it could have been b/c they didn't see us drinking, our bottle of wine wasn't open and all of the beer cans were empty. And omg the bitch tried to tell me that I had to throw away my shot glasses and I was like "my best friend gave me this shot glass, I'm not throwing it away." So I got realllly pissed off n i was about to cry but everyone made me feel alot better. So we went to Pizans n ate gross food, I only ate a litle bit and then I went in Scarbourough to use the bathroom n then I went back to my room n slept. I wanted to pass out but I couldn't seem to fall asleep right away.

Heres some great pics from the night:

me & Sam

The roomie and Sam...doing shots out of bowls...we really are typical college kids lol

My new friends: Franny & Katie

& Shelby... taking the shot

The beautiful Beeramid

so we knocked the beeramid over...twice...or was it three times?

OMG frannie speaks Japanese...wtf... why? She wrote my name for me!! <3

Haha Roomie, Sam, Shelby, & Candas

Shelby: "AHHA Dana did bunny ears in that picture." Sam: "Whats a bunny?"

Peas in a pod? I think so <3

AND the rest of the story goes Like this:

I woke up late today b/c I couldn't seem to sleep well but I get up n Sarah Imed me and said she had the worst night ever and I was like "omg me too, I got an alcohol citation" (which she prolly wouldn't have felt bad for me about because I was drinking underage and got caught therefore its my fault that the RA's are assholes), but apparently her night was a REALLY bad night. She got to witness domestic violence first hand. And guess what? it was at her JOB. or should I say "job". That "job" is seriously relly inappropriate to begin with and now that she got to witness her bosses brother beat the shit out of his girlfriend, its just downright wrong. But she doesn't seem to care and seems to think that its ok because the guy won't be back for a while. What would she have done if he had hit her? I mean if you can give your girlfriend a black eye then whats hitting some girl that works for your brother? So she had written me a note about it and I'm reading it and just starting to cry because I have some personal memories of domestic violence and I really can't take it when men hit women, its fuckng sick. People esp. kids and young ppl are forced to witness things like that they don't have a choice about whether or not to see someone hit someone else because its their family n their house and they can't leave, so i would imagine that if your witnesing violence at some random job, then maybe just maybe you should I dunno.... fucking leave. Who decides to put themselves in danger like that? I uderstand she likes these people and hangs out with them, but they are some really fucked up people. We're in college, the biggest problem you shoud have right now it not having enough money to pay for beer or getting an alcohol citation, not seeing your bosses brother beat the shit out of his girlfriend. But you know what? I'm done. I don't wanna hear anything else from her until she tells me she has quit that fucking job. I try and try to help her out and tell her what the best thing I think to do, but does she EVER listen to me? No. I'm not trying to say that I'm always right or that she should always do what I say, b/c she shouldn't and I'm definately not always right but I try my hardest to help her and shes always like "okay..but no." Which is fine but if she had listened to me to begin with then she wouldn't have witnesed people beating each other up. And every excuse she has made about not being able to leave the job is straight up fucking bullshit. I'm really upset and worried for her safety but she doesn't seem to care. Amd I'm pretty sure Matt, N Rob, and Dave and her mother would all be worred about her safety but I'm sure she doesn't care about them either. How nice.

SOoo today I had wanted to hang out w/ Ash n Lindsay. Ash said that they might go to sum party n I figured that would be fun. Plus the day before Ash didn't really seem like she felt like driving to get me so I just stayed here. I don't drive, but I do know that sometimes ppl just don't feel like driving somewhere so I never wanna pressure ppl to come get me, thats just rude. So she called me early today n wanted to know if I was gonna hang out with them n I didn't know so I told her to call me later n then when we talked later I said if u come get me then we'll all hang out. N she told me she'd call me when they finished getting food or whatever. So i'm just sitting around cuz I don't feel that well n then she called me at like 9:45 and was like well if I come get u and we hang out then I'll have to take you back tonight cuz she had work in the morning, but I didn't want her to have to drive me back late plus whats the point of making her drive out here 4 times to only hang out for like an hour. So i go well ask Lindsay if I can stay over her house n she asked lindsay n I could hear Lindsay answering n she sounded really pissed off n I kinda wanted to be like "umm.. I can hear you?" But she prolly had a reason I don't know what they were doing earlier. Anyways I was just like no, whatever I'll stay here, don't come get me. And Ash was like no, I'll come get you. But I was like nah, we'll just hang out later. It just seemed like she was the only one who wanted to hang out w/ me...but then not really b/c she didn't call me back til too late to hang out..but whatever Its not a big deal. It kind of annoys me how people in general sometimes act like I live right down the street and then sometimes they act like I live 5 hours away. I only live like 15-20 minutes away from everyone (25 if theres real bad traffic on the beltway), SO I dont' really get why sometimes ppl are like "yeah I'll come get you its no big deal, its just towson", n then other times their like "I don't feel like going alllllll the way out there." I mean its perfectly fine with me if people don't feel like hanging out with me, are too busy or just plain don't feel like driving anywhere, but I just hate when people blame it on the distance b/c thats the worst excuse ever because the distance is always the same. Just say the real reason because I'll always be the same distance away.

So back to yesterday night. I drunk dialed...I KNOW ..thats bad. Anyway I called Ashley when I was drunk n told her I was drunk..retarded lol. Then later I called Scottie but his phone was off n I didn't leave a message. I have a feeling that that lil potential relationship or whatever it could have been i dunno...isn't gonna go anywhere :(. But thats the story of my life. No one ever likes. And if they do when I decide I like them their not interested anymore.... ah well what can I do? SO, I called Brandon of all ppl and told him that I was sorry and I didn't hate him, I liked him and that I hoped we were still friends....I don't know why. I'm psycho. So he text me today n called me. oh well. hes a funny guy, I just won't invest any feelings or trust for that matter into our friendship now. And hooking up w/ him = a NO. I really can't believe I ever did actually, cuz its just weird when I think about the whole situation and my feelings about sex and what not. But whatever from now on I will make wiser choices. HAHA Brandon just drunk called me. He sounded pretty fucked up. But if I was him, I'd wanna be fucked up 2. lol

Tomorrow I'm gonna go to lunch w/ my mommie b/c I haven't talked to her alll week and she usually makes me feel better when I'm down. Shes seriously my favorite person in the world. Where would I be without her? Where would she be without me? hmm. I dunno. Don't wanna think about it.

I need to do my x-mas shopping soon. I have alot of ppl to buy things for. So far its: My fam= David, Dante', Dad, G-ma's n of course mi mama'. My best friends= Sarah, Lindsay, Ash. My friends from home= Jason, Kaitlin, Brandon, & Tom. School friends= Alex, Jennie, Alicia, Susan, Candas, Lindsay, Makenna & Franny & Katie, Caroline, Emily & Brittany. So thats alot of shopping, but I'm guesing I'll just do the picture frame thingy for most ppl cuz its quite popular and extremely inexpensive it totals about $3.00 a person if you count : getting the picture printed, the frame, the gift bag and the tissue paper. lol But for all the special ppl I'm gonna do way more creative things. so I need to JUMP ON IT.

Anyways:

Heres my x-mas list:

1. Ugg boots to keep my feeties warm for the beginning of spring semester. Camel ones of course, the short or the long ones + I need the protectant spray..duh.

2. New bathrobe

3. Makeup, from whereever, whatever you think I would look good in.

4. Conair Infiniti Tourmaline Hair Designer. that new hair dryer they keep putting commericals on tv for.

5. Cute pictures of us in a frame to decorate my dorm and remind me of how much I love and miss you.

6. Anyhing creative and cute that has to deal with things I like.

7. Anything from Bath& Body works...my fav smell is : Black Raspberry vanilla.

8. I also love the victoria's secret lotions n sprays.

9. Don't buy me clothes I'm a fatty n I gurantee that whatever clothes you buy me won't fit.

10. I want a camera. I don't know what kind, I just want to take fun pics of my friends I don't wanna be a photographer.

OMG an update

Tue, 31 Oct 2006 04:28:56 GMT

So,
I haven't updated in a long ass time. Life as always has been interesting. I have had some ups and some downs. School wise, I'm doing pretty well, I got the highest grade in the class on my frist business law test (thanx. Mr. lalli for making me do literally hundreds of vocab dittos over the 3 years of law class lol) Anyway I was sooo pumped about that, I mean...1st college test ever n I got a 100% fuck yeah. Esp in Law cuz I wanna be a LAWYER. SO I was pumped about that, but after that I kinda started to keep missing my classes for like 2 weeks n it annoyed me to no end. I missed my law class twice, I was late when I did go and I skipped my speech class b/c I didn't have my speech ready. :( N I'm always late to my fucking logic class because I have to walk all the way to fucking york. rd. It seriously takes me like 12 minutes to walk there. N its my earliest class, I have to get up at fucking 8:30 in the morning n the class is @ 9:30. I hate it but, I did really well on my last logic test YEAY b/c I didn't do so well on my first test.
Yesterday I was really proud of myself because I woke up around 11:00 and I cleaned up my crap all over my room and started to read my government chapter. So after about an hour of reading and taking notes I'm like wow I should be almost finished...oh wait: THIS CHAPTER IS 38 pages long. fuck. That chapter seriously took me more than 3 hours to read and write notes on. I finally had to stop when I had about 10 pages left and go back to towson n then finish there. After I got back to my dorm I finished my chpater n then talked to my roomie about our weekends, I went home n she stayed here. She was a bad girl...she got shit faced n made everyone else get shitfaced with her. She felt so bad she had to go to church the next morning lol. Love her. After I talked to her I ate some soup watched The Duel and then started to find web sources for my speech. As I was finding my sources we watched True Life: I'm a statten (sp?)Island girl. HILARIOUS man are they some fake tanned snotty bitches. eww. N they all wanted to leave the Island and get boyfriends. I'm like seriously, why do you wanna leave so bad and second there is wayyy more to life than finding a man. yeah nobody wants to be alone but don't make that your only goal in life.[AND OMG they did an MTV news update and it was all about this kid whose father was a sperm donor and he could never meet him, but it occured to him that if his father had donated more than once that he could possibly have half brothers or sisters. So he set up a website that allows people to register and say what number and stuff their sperm donor father is and they find out that they have half brothers and sisters. They showed these kids who had found each other 2 girls and 2 boys and they all had the same sperm donor father and they looked exactly alike. I was like dude thats crazy. What if you fell in love with someone and you found out that you both had sperm donor fathers and it was the same guy so you can't be together b/c thats illegal and your kids would be retarded? That would be horrible so I pesonally think sperm donors are bad, and not to mention fucking weird. ... back to the regular news...] So after that I concentrated on my speech and I was up til 4:00 am finishing it, but I think it was good. I hope I got a B+ or an A- on it. I forgot to print out my works cited page... but thats what happens when you're printing at 4 am. So I went to bed and got up early at 8am to go over my speech again highlight n such and quickly go over my business law notes for my test @ 10:00. I think I did well on my test, I was only iffy on a few questions. So hopefuly I bust the highest grade again.
For some reason when I woke up this morning I was in a good mood and I talked to these kids before I took my test and they put me in a good mood and then after my test I saw JESSIE P. I love her. Shes really nice and not in a fake way. I'm not gonna lie I don't like the bitches she hangs out w/ but shes a great person and shes been through alot and she just keeps on truckin so koodos to her. I'm def. gonna call her up so we can hang out when shes on campus. Then I saw my friend Andrew who is crazy. He seriously talks way to much but hes so funny I don't mind that much. and then I sat next to my friend Emily in government and I love her, shes so funny. Shes always tired n she falls asleep like at least 10 times per class. N I'm like "EM! wake up dear." N she wakes me up when I fall asleep so its all good. We still haven't gotten our midterms back from 2 weeks ago. Um I know theres alot of kids in this class but seriously its like would you fucking grade them already its mulitple choice n 1 essay, have ur student aid do the mutiple choice and read the damn essays. sheesh. So election judge is coming up soon, I have training on wednesday and I'm working at the polls on nov. 7th. need to call the board of electons to make sure I have a place to be judge at. After I gave my speech I talked to Sarah K. and Laura P. for a while. I def. need to hang out w/ Sarah more shes so nice.
After I talked to them Alex, Alicia n I went to lunch @ Newell it was good, I was proud of myself for eating a salad n I got myself a banana for tomorrow morning. trying to be somewhat more healthy. You can't even complain about your body if you don't make an effort to be healthy and work out. I def. need to start working out again. I shouldn't have stopped :(. So after lunch i watched some Hogan knows best & charmed and took a 3 hour nap cuz I didn't sleep that much this weekend. And then I got up and texted Jennie to go get food w/ me but she was getting a smoothie w/ someone so I just told her to come visit me when she gets back to the dorm b/c I miss her. haven't seen her since thursday, shes like a piece of furniture in our room lol, thats how often shes here. Anyway so I called up Lindsay and when she got out of her late class we went to Paws for dinner n she had to study for her test tomorrow n I have hw I need to do so we went back to our rooms.
This weekend was crazy, as always. I felt terrible on Friday b/c Lindsay was upset about her party n I tld her she could come over but my bothers got in a horrible fight and my mom starte yelling at my brothers and that just not a point that you can have someone come over. My brothers seriously don't get along at all anymore. Dante' is just out there and he is failing school and he has some girlfriend that he hangs out with before school at her house and they go in to school late all the time. WTF? he needs to get his shit together. + David doesn't want to deal w/ him anymore and Dante' is so mean to him. So they were both sitting there and dante' kept saying rude shit and David knocked his cup out of his hand and his hot coco flew everywhere and it was hot as shit n it burned his chest lightly. :( So my mom got so pissed on everyone argued for like 2 hours n Lindsay couldn't come over n I started to cry b/c I hate arguing n how my little brother can't do well in school and Linds was having such a sucky week already. But I only cried for a few minutes b/c I hate crying. So I watched the Island which I thought was a good movie I LOVE Ewan McGregor n Scarlett Johanssen(sp?). So then I woke up and went to get my hair done on sat. I got it chemically straightened..and as usually it burned my head cuz I have a tender scalp. :( but it turned out nice and she trimmed my split ends. My hair is getting really long so I need to get it trimmed more often to make sure I don't get bad split ends and have my hair break too far up the strand. I spent 4 hours at the hair place cuz the lady is slow as shit, but she always does my hair the way I want it so its whatever. It almost looks like I dyed it b/c she put alot of oil in it but I wouldn't dye my hair darker b/c it would make my skin look pale(esp b/c I get really pale in the winter) I might go tanning like once or twice just to keep my summer glow. once or twice can't kill you right? lol
After I got my hair done I ate dinner w/ the fam n watched tv w/ my mom n then Lindsay n Ash made me pick what we were gonna do for the night. So I said we should go hang out w/ Tyler and Kaitlin @ the harbor but long story short plans go messed up and certain ppl can't give directions and refuse to explain things at all so we ended up at a Egyptian hooka bar after driving around for literally 2 hours. Then we went to some party in parkville w/ Kaitlin which would have been okay if I had felt like drinking. Some of the kids seemed cool & the girls seemed nice. but we left n went to the dinner b/ linds n I were starving. Crab soup yum yum. <3 MD. So I went home and slept cuz I had to do my gov hw n such. The weekend wasn't horrible but it could have been better. Even if we didn't do much and ppl were annoyed it still made me feel better to be around ppl I know & love. :) cuz I was down last week (after missing my classes and just feeling poopy).
Oh yeah, On friday when I decided to go home I wanted to talk to my mom in the car about how sucky my week was n all the reasons why but she was on the phone w/ Paul. Excuse me but it really pisses me off when people that I consider important in my life and people that I support 100% put some fucking dude in front of me. I don't give one fucking shit that your stuid boyfriend "Paul" is going on vacation this week and you won't get to talk to him. Fuck him. Who is he anyway? Some fucking dude. I'm DANA, recall? that girl that was there for you when you needed her the most and is your flesh and blood. I don't see you that often either so don't sit there and talk to fucking "Paul" on the phone when I need to talk to you. I honestly don't ever want to meet this guy. I can't imagine him living w/ my mom and having my little brother be okay with it b/c he still has to live w/ my mom for the next 4 years n I'm going to be living at my house during the summer & breaks for the next 2 or 3 years. I can't see going home for the weekend or for holidays/vacations and having some strange dude in my house and having him be more comfortable there than me. I don't want to walk in MY house and have some guy living there and have all his shit sitting around. Hes not a member of my family and he never will be and there is no way that I'm ever going to have this guy included in my family get togethers and affairs. Sorry mom I want to support you in everything you do but I can't support you in this. I just can't. I don't even want to meet the people that are actually related to me so I certainly don't want to have to deal w/ some fucking guy I don't even know. Apparently my mother's family wants to meet me and my brothers but I'm like fuck that. Where were you when my dad was around?, It seems pretty funny to me that they suddenly want to meet us now that my black dad is out of the picture. hmm..interesting... It pissed me off beyond belief. Imagine if I had gotten into the car and sat there and talked on the phone to my friend who I wasn't going to see for a week instead of talking to my mom. She would have been pissed so she shouldn't do the same fucking thing to me. And I'm not gonna lie it really pissed me off even more b/c Sarah put mike in front of me on myspace. I KNOW its JUST myspace, but its just like wow I'm your best friend and when you break up with mike, I'll still be there. Who the fuck is Mike to sit there and tell Sarah that she needs to put him in front of me? Nice job of immediately trying to get in between your girlfriend and her best friend. Heres a bit of advice to all girls and guys when you start dating someone. BE NICE TO THEIR BEST FRIEND & the rest of their friends for that matter. You want to have them like you or at least get along well after all tey are people that matter to your boyfriend girlfriend. And guess what? Mike started off the wrong fucking way. Piss me off go ahead, see if I like you now, because I'm not gonna lie, I really don't. He already had strikes against him, but now I'm not gonna pretend like I like him. But as always I support Sarah in everything she does (I'm going to get along w/ Mike when I have to :) but this is my honest opinion.
Anyway thats about it. I need to do my hw now. :p
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BEST WEEK EVER

Tue, 17 Oct 2006 04:37:00 GMT

I was drunk, but I was telling the truth, heres proof. lol

Fri, 06 Oct 2006 06:32:50 GMT

Happy birthday Kaitlin, sorry for bein' late. :O opps

:) <3 yaz

Mon, 25 Sep 2006 21:14:58 GMT

I CAN'T BELIEVE SHE GAVE ME ALCOHOL!!!!!!!!!!

haha

Wed, 20 Sep 2006 19:41:41 GMT

Coco Bistro.

haha

I miss going nowhere with my bffs.