UPDATE:

- ipod is working
- I'm really bad w/ technology and prescribe to the "if you bang it a few times it will start working theory"
- I'm pumped my ipod is working
- I love my future roomies. esp: Brittany n Lindsey
- I'm so excited for next year, everyone is gonna be happy
- I love my new friend Tanya, but shes really sad on the inside
- That makes me sad
- I like Kyle, but I don't think he likes me
- That makes me sad too. lol ahhhh weelll
- I'm in the middle of procrastinating STILL n my bibliography is due in 12 hours.
- I don't know why I'm procrastinating this bad
- I'm so done with this school year
- I'm going to lose weight this summer & be healthy
- I think I want to join a sorority next year, but sometimes I hate girls..
- I want to get back into cheerleading, n thats why I need to lose weight n get healthy again
- I can't wait til I get my license & my CAR!
- I've been thinking about "change" & I feel like I've only changed for the better ie: more independent, less shy, more confidant, better at public speaking, better at decision-making, I learned alot about dealing with different types of people
- I miss having a few ppl in my life. A lot.
- I'm going to the horse race this weekend n getting shitty alllll day.
- I'm not as pumped for Tiger-Fest as everyone else is, mostly cuz I don't listen to Dashboard, but I'll be wasted by the time I get there so it should be fun anyways
- I hope I go to a party tomorrow night or else out somewheres to drink
- Whenever ppl visit me there's nothing going on n it makes me feel retarded n they prolly think I go to a really gay school N i don't go out
- I have something due or I have a test everyday next week
- This year is over on May 22nd
- I now love purevolume.com b/c I can download songs, which always makes me happy
- I just drank 2 vaults, a coke n half a Gatorade
- I'm gonna work on my work now

I know I should be doing my bibliography but I guess I just need to get some things off my chest before I can actually sit down n concentrate enough to write it.

Well I guess I'll start with my shitty basically 2ish weeks now.

The week before last I did really bad on my geography exam, which doesn't sound like that big of a deal but to me it is, I have to do well to keep up my grade point average to stay in the Honors College and its important that I stay in the Honors College b/c: I want to graduate with Honors AND They give me yearly $ 1,000 every year. so thats $ 4,000 towards my education that I really can't afford to lose. So I'm worried n stressed about that class n about my grades n everything. I also failed a quiz in History 100 which was shitty too so I'm pretty stressed n worried about those two classes.

so i don't strepp or mono. but I am on anti-biotics.

& I have to gargle salt water so i don't get an infection.

i have alot of hw to do n i need to nap.

i have 4 exams, not 3.

geez

i can't wait til thursday @ 2

MY life is awesome.

I have strepp throat
 & the health center closed @ 5:00
The health center doesn't open until tomorrow @ 8

I have 3 mid-terms this week.

i'm going to be on anti-biotics over spring break

FUUUCCCKKK.

SO yet again my life is hilariously crazy. I've been mad busy doin lots of things w/ cool peeps.

I'll go day by day:

Thursday march 1st:

~Took my first geography quizz. got a C.
~ Went on a tour of Towson Run & we decided its goin down next year. Its gonna be crazy, we're gonna have parties like every other day & be completely fucked up all the time. I'm pretty pumped. we better get it & all be together.

 Friday March 2nd:
~ hung out with franny, & turned in my housing deposit.
~ Decided to go home because everyone was leaving that weekend so I didn't want to be at school alone.
~ My mom picked me up.
~ I chilled w/ my family.

Sat. March 3rd:
~ went to the bank deposited my checks!
~ Went shopping with my mom
~ Caught up on all my fv shows that I miss when I'm at school.
~ Ashley called me after she got off work & we went over to CCBC Dundalk & hung out w/ Brian K, while him & Big Jeremy we're playin bball
~ It was really cold so we all got back in the cars & went to Brian's house.
~ We just chilled in Brian's house for like 4 hours n watched tv n talked. He's so hilarious. We def. had good times. We can't wait to hang out w/ him some more soon.

Sun. March 4th:
~ Left Brian's really late & went back home & went to sleep
~ got up early n ate n hung out w/ my moms some more & then she drove me back to school
~ get back to school & my roomie ate my [fav] chips. :(
~ went to work: only makde $95.00 in pledges. it sucked

Monday March 5th:
~ got up early went to ceramics, had a hard time workin my clay. :(
~ went to my room: showered
~ went to bio lab, watched gattaca
~ grabbed lunch alone went to bio lecture, didn't sit next to sarah :(
~ went to women's studies: found out I had a mini-presentation due. wed.
~ ate a snack & went to work: didn't make any pledges, walked back alone, cuz i was upset.
~ waited for the firedrill in my building to be over then walked up 8 flights of stairs
~ started crying in my room
~ went to bed really early, cried in bed
~ got 10 hours of sleep

Tues. March 6th:
~woke up really well rested, went to geography.
~ went back to my room: did some reading for uie history
~went to history: found out I did a really good job on my bibliography test. I got a B!!!
~ went back to my room & cleaned like crazy.
~ ate lunch & stayed in trying to work on my mini-presentation that was due the next day.
~ half-finished my presentation

Wed. March 7th:
~ up early went to ceramics(even tho it was SNOWING we didn't have off class, fuckers), finished my pots, did better
~ came back to my room worked on my mini-presentation, finished it
~ went to bio lecture, then gave my presentation, I think it went well. (I wrote a poem for it, I'll post it later maybe.)
~ hung out with lindsay, went to trax to get good food w/ the rest of our meals. got a LOT of things
~ Studies for my uie history quizz, & then watched lost & went to bed

Thurs. March 8th:
~skipped geograhy, couldn't take the lecture that morning
~got up studied for my footnote quiz
~ took a quick shower, forgot my bluebook to take the test in
~ went to uie History had to borrow a book from someone
~ took the test, I think I did well.
~ went back to my room took a nap
~ woke up did my hair, decided to go to baja, talked to ash on the phone & (Jason on aim who said he wanted to hang out soon...yea ok)
~ franny came over& tiffany came down, we started drinkin: vodka & crysta light, yummy.
~ Franny had food poisoning so she had to go & we decided not to go to Baja.
~ called up ppl n found out about a valley view party
~ went to the party in 4 inch heels & my roomates shirt i borrowed, had a blast, met a million ppl n talked to sum ppl I already knew
~ Drank 2 beers & 3 cups of jungle juice?
~ started holding hands w/ this cool boy i had met once before, kissed him
~ The cops came & busted the party: we had to walk down a huge hill in the cold snow in 4 inch heels. He asked if I wanted him to carry me: he so cute.
~ amazingly i didn't die coming down the hill SO:  all the boys came back to Tiffany's room
~ My boy stayed over in my room & .......

Friday: March 9th:
~ Woke up the next morning n we chatted for like 2 hours n called my friend to wake her up for class
~ called Franny & went to alcohol class (cuz of my citation LAST SEMESTER.)
~ Ate lunch w. Franny & Susan, went to Tiffany's room to tell her details about the rest of my night after I left her room :)
~  came back to my room: called Ashley ,my mom & my dad
~ went to Lindsay's room to hang out w/ her
~ took a nap and my roomate decided to talk about me to her friend WHILE I WAS IN THE ROOM. I could hear her even tho she was whispering. Its like: fuck you, you stupid bitch, go back to New Jersey & stay there forever, the world would be a better place for it.
~ I was going to go out but I was dead tired so I watched tv, called Ashley twice (we serously talk on the phone like every day more than once a day lol. I <3 her so much.)
~Now I'm updating my journal. It's been to long to type in details about everything.

Future plans:
Sat. March 10th(tomorrow):
~ tailgating + lax game= being drunk ALLLLL DAY.

March 11th- 15th:
~working + classes all week
~ & some tests & quizzes

March 15th:
~ coming home for SPRING BREAK!!!!!!!!
~ Hopfully hanging out with: Ashley(obviously), my fam(duh) Brian & Brandon.
~ So we'll see how it all goes down.

Why is my life moving so fast?

I hate geography.

A lot.

x 10.

fuck this shit.

I suck @ studying.

I really wanna hang out w/ my bros, but I have NO desire to go home.

;(

N I need to call up B Hol b/c this parkin ticket shit pisses me off everytime I think about it.

BOO TU, occasionally u suck.

MY LIFE IS HILARIOUS.

I have a parking ticket and I don't have a car.

My first check was $20.36.

I don't like that boy on my floor anymore.

buttt  .......  I hung out w/ hot marines this weekend.

so

beat that bitches.

My life gets funnier everyday.  really it does.

I need a shower.

&&I'm actually glad theres space between me & my old friends/friends from home
 b/c I have a shitload of new friends who I wouldn't have made if I was always going home.
 
OH WHAT A DAY.

oiii

So, My life is awesome. I have something to do everyday, I'm working towards my goals, I'm not late to class like I was last semester,  I'm getting to think I know what type of law I want to deal with and that, &maybe, just maybe, I want to do teach for a year or two after I graduate, I have a job, I have a shitload of friends & I have a crush on this cute boy on my floor. I also figured out where I'm gonna live next year and who with. Its not definate but I'm pretty sure its gonna happen. Pretty soon me and Bobby are going up to PA to visit Heather & Ed. I'm going to take a road trip with my friends soon and I started working out again so I'm gonna lose a few pounds n feel healthier. Life is pretty sweet.
 
But I can't help but feel sad sometimes. I just keep remembering all of these things in my life that I miss. Its not even things I lost. Its things that are just over & you can't ever get them back. I have really had alot of good times in my life doing different things with different people. I miss playing tag everyday with the kids on my court. I don't live there anymore and neither do they. I miss playing categories with my family on friday nights when I was little. We don't play that game anymore and my parents don't live together. I miss law class & all the people there. We graduated back in june. I miss staying home from school and getting happy meals with my mom. We don't eat Mcdonald's anymore. I miss watching bad movies & sportscenter with my dad. We barely speak now. I miss making christmas cookies with my mom. We don't celebrate christmas anymore. I miss playing jv lacrosse even though we lost every game that season. I don't play sports anymore.

I miss 3 of them, 3 of us.

So I haven't had a real update in a while. And lots of things have happened in my life.

So first off winter break ended and I could not have been happier. Winter break sucked. I was bored, didn't have a job n had no one to hang out with so I sat around all day. N everytime I hung out w/ my friends they were in bad moods n everyone would argue n yell the whole time so I didn't feel any better when we hung out. I also didn't get to see some people that i had wanted to hang out with. But its ok, future winter breaks will NOT suck like that. lol

So I came back to school n I wanted to make sure that this semester is really fun. I came back to school on sat n my roomate wasn't coming back til Sunday so it was up to me to call up people n make my own day fun. Last semester I kind of depended on my roomate for stuff to do and I didn't want this semester to be the same. I wanted to be tottally independent. So I called up all my friends to see if they were back yet and what they were doing. I met some new people and hung out over in Tower B. It was pretty fun. One of the first weekends back I went to the Ice Hockey game and the to a baseball party which was CRAZY. The game was fun, but extremely cold n we lost. :( The boys try so hard so it sucks that we lose all the time. Their also so nice and adorable, well most of them anyway lol. The baseball party was crowded n they weren't letting anyone else in but this kid we were with knew someone so we got in n I saw some of my friends from my gov class last semester. But they didn't have any cups left and their were alot of half naked girls dancing in their underwear so we left. And went back to Tower B and drank hot cocoa.

Life is good.

winter break SUX

I have the most boring life in history & I can't wait for it to not be boring anymore.

    So, we had nothing to do tonight, nothing new there, anywayz everyone was mad n yelling n ppl were being rude n the whole time i was just chill n texting brandon who was hiiigh n was cracking me up. anyway so eventually it got to the point where i just wanted to go home (b/c everyone was upset and mad but me) so Tyler told me he would drop me off on his way home. So i go over and stand with tyler n the kids linds invited over (it was like tony, paul, that one girl, the fat kid w/ curly hair n some other person i dunno...fucking gay ass scene kids.) so they were talking about how they heard about a party n it ended up being just 3 black guys sitting there playing video games n right when they said that I thought in my mind "oh god, racism is about to ensue" and sure enough...the next thing they say is "omg we'd prolly have gotten shot." and the girl's like "black ppl in essex shoot everyone."
    N I'm thinking..."WTF, I hate racism." N you might be like "oh well they were prolly just kidding.." well they weren't they were dead serious. So I say really sarcastically. "Yeah, because all black people do is shoot people." (same argument brian was making the first time I met him....and we KNOW how that went...) So EVERYONE responds..."yeah they do." (meanwhile they alll look at me like I'm psycho to be disagreeing with them) n the lone fat kid was like "well maybe in like O'donnel heights..but not in Essex".....wow.....seriousy....people are soo fucking stupid. N the girl responds to me "yeah they do." N Tyler's like "essex is full of rednecks." which HELLO it is. Theres way more redneck hicks in essex than black ppl and if anyone is gonna shoot someone its gonna be the fucking redneck hicks who hate black ppl (who are probably that girls parents..) seriously ppl r so fucking stupid. I kinda just looked at Paul like...I could swear you knew I was black..but nothing there...hes a fucking retard who needs to wash his hair. So me n Tyler walk away n I'm like "Ppl r so fucking stupid." They were not even joking.
    I'm not one to get offended easily over simple things, but when people seriously say shit like that and they aren't joking its really pathetic and they need to be called out on it. I seriously hate people. I'm never hanging out with Paul or any of his douche bag friends again. I already don't like them scene fucks anyway and for them to say that kinda shit is ridiculous. I guess cuz alot of people don't realize that I'm black, people just feel free to say all of their hatred and stupid racism in front of me. Well even if I wasn't black its just kinda like you don't fucking know me, you don't know who my friends are, you don't know who my family is, you don't know who I date, you don't know shit about me so maybe you shouldn't just spit racist shit around like your so damn much better than everyone else.

So to wrap it up Ash n Linds n Tyler can hang around those fucks alllll they want to be NOT ME. If she trys to say "lets call up Paul." I'll be like you can call him up after you take me home because I'm not hanging around those fucking gay ass losers. The only reason I hung around w/ Brian after all the shit he said is, we didn't really hang out w/ him that much and he gave me a sincere apology and him being the asshole that he generally is it was really surprising that he apologized at all.

I hate racism n racist ppl.

So I'm in a really shitty mood n I'm gonna go ahead n list why:

1) I'm not gonna be able to get a car this summer. I have to get a full time job this summer so that when my mom (and eventually my shitty dad) can help me out I will have some money to get a car with. I'm also gonna have to get a job when I get back to towson. I'm not complaining about getting a job b/c i've had one before, but I don't have someone to drive me all the time job, so I have to get a job I can walk to. which means my job is going to be shitty and I'm going to hate it. I'm never going to be able to drive. shit.

2) My friends keep lieing to ppl n its starting to piss me off. Tell people the truth, their not gonna be that mad. damn

3) My "best friend" is fucking her entire life up and I'm trying to tell her that its a really bad idea but she doesn't seem to care and doesn't seem to want to talk to me. But ya know, "whatev" Its just like thanx for calling me and telling me ur home or that u wanna hang or i dunno something.

4) I hate when people call me and say "where on our way to get you" or they say  "We're at your house now". I love my friends their great & I love hanging out with them and I'm very appreciative when they go out of their way to pick me up and then take me home again b/c I don't drive but fucking call me before you show up at my house n give me a few minutes to get ready b/c I hate making ppl wait.

5) I'm getting tired of hearing about all these people I don't know. Its like I don't know if you remember back a few weeks but I lived somewhere else for about 4 months and I didn't meet all these people that you met so if your gonna talk about them at least exlain who they are.

6) Plus I fucking hate scene ppl. And I'm pretty sure they don't like me either b/c I don't dress retarded like they do and I'm not "cool." I also hate emo ppl n rocker ppl n preppy hollister kids. their stupid. they dress stupid and I'll say it when I think it. & you might respond: "well they prolly think your stupid too." my response: "GOOD, I don't give a shit. They look stupid & their ASSHOLES."

6) Ppl need to wash their fucking hair. And if they do but style it so make it seem like they don't then their GAY.

7) I know that other ppl really don't give a shit about what I do when I'm at school and all the ppl I hang out with so I don't talk about them. I don't want to bore other ppl with stories of alll these people they have never met so I don't talk about it unless its an extremely funny relevant story. So it would be pretty cool if other ppl would do the same for me.

8) If  have to hear the name tony boobs one more time I'm gonna hit someone.

9) I don't have any money. I can't go on vacation this summer, I can't go on a cruise or to mexico or to senior week. I don't have the money
I'm going to need allll my money for whatever sorority I choose to join. Which I'm really excited about and no one at all is excited for me. I'm really pumped about it and I try to tell ppl about it and I don't even get a "thats cool." their just like "good for you."

10) I fucking hate winter time with a passion. My skin breaks out n gets dry & winter is just an all around shitty season. its like FUCK if it has to be cold and i have to freeze all the time at least fucking snow outside. shit.

11) I also haven't talked to another one of my friends in a while n it its bothering me for some reason. I feel really pathetic when I think about it. I seriously need to stop bc its NEVER going to happen and I already know that. I just wish I could meet someone that was interested. :(

12) I'm also really tired alllll the time even tho I've been sleeping alll day for the past few weeks and not doing anything. I need to take irons pills. :(

13) Basically I just want to go back to Towson & start my semester & and join a sorority. Like NOW.

Quick Update on my life.

* Took all my finals & the grades are:
       Cultural Studies:  B
        Logic:                    B -
        Government:        A
        Speech:                B
        Legal Business: A
                            over all GPA: 3.334 HOLLA
* GPA = Not worried about staying in the honors college
* Jason had a party, it was fun, I didn't get drunk BUT....shit got stolen = ppl r assholes
* The library @ school is a good place to study minus the FaceBook temptation
* I enjoyed Ice Skating w/ Kaitlin & I'm def. gonna do it again
* Lying around my house eating cake icing is refreshing and fun
* Sleeping in a twin bed with another person is extremely uncomfortable & I do not recommend it
* I do however recommend sleeping w/ another person :p
* Boys still confuse me & even worse, I confuse myself.
* My family is crazy & try my hardest, but I dunno if its gonna work... guess I'll try harder?
* I LOVE my friends
* I really miss S. G.
* Maybe things aren't so bad

Future plans:

* Go see a movie or two
* Relax over break & start my diet/ working out since I have no jobby
* Hang out w/ my peeps
* Try a few new things :)
* Visit my roomie w/ Jennie
* Take a day trip to NYC w/ the roomie n Jennie
* Maybe visit Lindsay Griffindor in the process?
* Get a job on campus when I get back to Towson
* Rush for the sororities...find one I like?.... Join?
* Get extremely good grades next semester
&
* NO missing class
      

OMG so my mommie bought me the cutest shoes ever! they were one sale. They are gorgeous steve madden black patent pumps.

SEXXII.

anyway. soo lunch w/ mi mama' was good and I got Kaitlin, Brandon and my roomie x-mas presents. I hope they like them. & I also told my mom to go buy part of Lindsays present for me lol.  I'm in a better mood today. i'm gonna do some hw now n then I'm going to eat dinner w/ my new friend katie.

I haven't updated in forever so since I'm having a poopy day I figured I would update. I guess I'll start with what happened yesterday. Yesterday I woke up and went to class and we finished our class time in like 25 minutes so we left early. Pretty sweet, then I did all my laundry and worked on my hw. So I felt very accomplished. Alex and I decided that we were gonna go over to Tower D and drink and have Doug get us some natty light for Power Hour. Sam made the cutest power hour cd. Its 60 different tv show theme songs and everytime the song changes you have to take a shot of beer. It doesn't sound hard I mean over all its prolly like 4 cans of beer. But I'm a light weight so I got a lil drunk lol. Anyway so we went over to Tower D and we saw Doug on the way but he said that the RA's in Tower D didn't want to let him in w/o checking his bag so he just didn't go in the Tower. So we decided to all go over to my Tower. So it was, me, Sam, Shelby, Alex, Franny, Candas and Katie. We had wayyy too much fun n we built a beeramid w/ our cans. And omg I totally found my best friend here. Franny is crazy & we had soo much in common. She knew all the lil wyte songs I played!

( rest of the story..long )

I need to do my x-mas shopping soon. I have alot of ppl to buy things for. So far its: My fam= David, Dante', Dad, G-ma's n of course mi mama'. My best friends= Sarah, Lindsay, Ash. My friends from home= Jason, Kaitlin, Brandon, & Tom. School friends= Alex, Jennie, Alicia, Susan, Candas, Lindsay, Makenna & Franny & Katie, Caroline, Emily & Brittany. So thats alot of shopping, but I'm guesing I'll just do the picture frame thingy for most ppl cuz its quite popular and extremely inexpensive it totals about $3.00 a person if you count : getting the picture printed, the frame, the gift bag and the tissue paper. lol But for all the special ppl I'm gonna do way more creative things. so I need to JUMP ON IT.